march 22, 2019

cheese fight

content warning: suicide, abuse, guns

I am playing an Animal Crossing-like game in which you earn Heart Points, or HP, by making villagers happy and doing them favors. Around the town there are sheds and lean-tos marking where new buildings or amenities can be unlocked with HP. I go to one with a red bear in front of it. It is an arcade and costs 34 HP to unlock. I have 144 HP. I unlock it and am prompted to pick a layout for the arcade, similarly to Animal Crossing Happy Home Designer. While in the middle of figuring out what layout I want I am interrupted.

I am living with my partner (at the time) at my father's house. My partner asks if we can go make dinner. I agree, but I am reluctant because my father usually fights with us or yells at us when we leave the bedroom. We go out into the kitchen where they have left their dirty cookware and old food from dinner on the stove. My partner goes out to the garage to get ingredients from the fridge while I begin to clean off a pan, which is just full of cold melted cheese, so we can use it to make hot sandwiches. My father comes out of the dining room and berates me for not wanting to eat the meal he made. I try to explain that my partner and I are both lactose intolerant but he starts screaming over me. He tells me I am stupid and ungrateful for not eating anything he cooks. Every time I try to respond he gets closer to me and I begin to panic. Finally he starts to reach out to grab me and I scream out, "If you hate me so much maybe I should just die!" and I run out toward the garage.

At this point my partner has come back inside and tries to intervene but I rush past him. In the fridge there is a black and yellow gun and I try to grab it but my father grabs onto me and pulls me away from it, pulling down my clothing as I struggle. I fight my way free and run outside. My father follows me with a shotgun and is able to get in front of me. I grab the barrel of the shotgun and point it at my face and demand he pull the trigger. He tells me he won't give me the satisfaction of letting me die and that I deserve to suffer. I lunge forward to try to grab the stock but he is able to dodge. My partner reaches us and grabs me to pull me back inside. I am told by him and my father that I am to be under constant watch. My sister comes over to watch me I am locked in the room and I go back to playing my game.

xx 00, 20xx

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this was a duplicate entry so it will take me time to fix! ty for your patience~